Well tomorrow will complete my first of 3 weeks of Whole Brain Radiation. I lost 4 pounds from last week which I am glad for but hopefully this isn’t a sign of deterioration. That’s 25 pounds since I entered the hospital on 1/12 with my staph infection. My vitals are good and other than my growing fatigue,some temple and jaw pain, and a dull headache, I am so far so good. The Dr. saw me today and doesn’t expect me to have major side effects which relieves my stress.
I am surrounded by a strong support system which really has helped me so much. It is funny though how the ones the most distant from me whether by distance or just by knowing me, are sometimes the strongest supporters.
Faith has always been a very private matter to me. I believe it is a personal choice who to believe in or not believe in. Those choices are a human right and should be respected and left alone. That said, in my 40’s I began a spiritual journey in search of finding something that would give my life joy and a deeper relationship with my God. I finally feel at home and at peace with my destination, and it strengthens me and gives me peace as I deal with these oncoming issues. I never would have found the inner strength to deal with cancer and my sister’s murder in the past 5 1/2 years, were it not for my faith. Sometimes it is hard to see why God challenges us in numerous ways. But as I reflect back, I can see a glimpse of why things happened the way they did and how they have made myself and my family closer, and better people.
I hope you all find joy and peace in your days and remember that there is always something to be thankful for and to smile about! XO